JoleneSnow -Girl who went through hell to finally meet heaven.
friday th 13th , GLOOMY :(
Friday, March 13, 2009

* Someone once said that one day I'll find a guy that would never hurt me. I still haven't found that guy. I'm starting tot think that he dosen't exist.


Snow's back !! :D
I'm recovered from my chicken pox alrdy :) :) :)

Went to polyclinic for review tday.
Doctor say im okay alrdy.
But my mc's extended to 17th March just in case.
So i just gotta rest more till 17th March & thn im free.

My heart feels heavy. & im hurt + a little disappointed.
I just dont understand. i should just laugh at myself.
what was i expecting when i told you im recovered ?
maybe i was expecting you would be so overjoyed tht you
would rush to meet me straightaway. HAHAHAHAHA!!
i must have been day-dreaming,just one-sided on my part.
I kept asking myself " is love about fear ?"
are you tht scared ?
i was thinking if it was th other way round, what would i do ?
th sad fact is tht if it was you contracted w chickenpox,i would be thr
by yr side,taking care of you.. each & everyday. Regardless of myself.

Being selfless .....

That's LOVE.
i mingle w my primary 4 cousin everyday.
But he didn't contract th virus. It's not because he was lucky
or not. HE DIDN"T FEAR !!
He loved me as his cousin & did not shun away from me.
Neither did any of my family members who hv nt contracted th pox before.
I've recovered & ?? You're still scared.
I don't see myself being unreasonable at all. When i'm so sick,so down,
i did not force you to come takecare of me or anything.
Instead,those days were spent lonely. I didn't complain.
I understand yr situation & know tht you hv yr family members to think abt.
When someone is sick & down w whatever disease or virus,of cos they would want to see their loved ones being thr for them,taking care of them.

That's love isn't it?

But even when im recovered, you're still scared. What's this all abt?
Are you rly happy tht i've recovered,did you really missed me all this while ?

How eager were you to see me once you know i've recovered ???

I've been doing so much all this while.
Trying to be yr perfect someone.
Again & claim tht you din change.
Again & again,i told you to reflect.
Do i deserve irrational treatment or any indifferent attitude ?


I'm leaving messages and voicemails
Telling you I miss you
Baby am I doing too much
Why you tryna diss me
When I just wanna kiss you
Baby am I doing too much
Tell me what's the issue
Who I give these lips to
Baby am I doing too much
This is turning into
Something I ain't hip to
Baby am I doing too much

See you got me all alone
Waitin right here by the phone
For you to call me,
Just to hearYour voice tone
I keep on wondering if you was evenFeeling me,
I keep on wondering if
This was even meant to be
Tell me imma waste of time, boy
You showing me no sign, is it cuz u on
Ya grind, cuz you're always on my mind

I keep on wondering if everything you said was true
I keep on wondering if you were really coming through

Now here I go again blowing you up,
And my girlfriends keep telling meI'm doing too much
Now here I go again blowing you up,
And my girlfriends keep telling meI'm doing too much

Whatever it is,

And when you need me
I'll be there for you always
I'll be there your whole life through
I'll be there this
I'll promise you

Goodbye's the saddest word I'll ever hear
Goodbye's the last time I will hold you near
Someday you'll say that word and I will cry
It'll break my heart to hear you say goodbye

There are certain things he says to me that makes me believe that he does love me but some other things he says makes me think I don't even cross his mind.

Behind the glamour.

Who says a wayward kid will stay wayward forever? ™
Better Known as SNOW
I'm an Author, Entrepreneur and Glutton all in ONE!
12th October 1990, I'm a libran and lovin it!
I'm the author of (Jolene's Story), my first published memoir, a true life story under Marshall Cavendish!

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