ANXIETY DISORDER.
Thursday, December 18, 2008
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=( im so freaking nervous =(
N LEVEL results in another 11 hours time. Im so anxious & nervous. Im just so afraid of nt being able t pass. Im afraid of being a failure. Its like everyone has high hopes on me and my expection of myself is high too. Im alrdy 18 & i've wasted so much time rotting my life away inside Girl's Home. I have t stp wasting time. I don't feel proud tt im still tking Nlevels at th age of 18 bt tis is th path i hv t tk. I must be strong and face it. I want t be successful in th future. I dont wish t waste my life away. I want t pass my Nlevels. *SCREAMMMS*
today~i was late f wrk. sales was bad tday. guess i din hv th mood -.- too stressed up over my results. babydarlinq surprised me after wrk. aqkenneth came t surprise shirley. hw sweet (= he sent me off till Buangkok. Thanks Bi,you made my day (= reached home & it was Drama time. Tday was th last episode of ''Dicey Buisness'' This drama rocks my socks ! It's totally awesome. It made me cry ytd and tday too. Won't mind watching it over & over agn.
I love shows tt has Bobby Au Yeung.
=( im so freaking nervous =(
N LEVEL results in another 11 hours time. Im so anxious & nervous. Im just so afraid of nt being able t pass. Im afraid of being a failure. Its like everyone has high hopes on me and my expection of myself is high too. Im alrdy 18 & i've wasted so much time rotting my life away inside Girl's Home. I have t stp wasting time. I don't feel proud tt im still tking Nlevels at th age of 18 bt tis is th path i hv t tk. I must be strong and face it. I want t be successful in th future. I dont wish t waste my life away. I want t pass my Nlevels. *SCREAMMMS*
today~i was late f wrk. sales was bad tday. guess i din hv th mood -.- too stressed up over my results. babydarlinq surprised me after wrk. aqkenneth came t surprise shirley. hw sweet (= he sent me off till Buangkok. Thanks Bi,you made my day (= reached home & it was Drama time. Tday was th last episode of ''Dicey Buisness'' This drama rocks my socks ! It's totally awesome. It made me cry ytd and tday too. Won't mind watching it over & over agn.
I love shows tt has Bobby Au Yeung. all i want f christmas is ???
i srsly dk.
=( i rly donwan baby darlinq t go th bike license =( i rly rly dowan =(
its okay if he tks th license f experience. bt i dowan him hving a bike as transport.everyday i open th newspaper,a motorist died of some horrible accident.they flew out of their bikes and gt run over by some other vehicle. thn they pass away =( i donwan my boyfr t hv a bike. i know its selfish f me t think tis way if its smthing my boyfr rly wants but =( i guess noone understands. SIGHHS~
its okay if he tks th license f experience. bt i dowan him hving a bike as transport.everyday i open th newspaper,a motorist died of some horrible accident.they flew out of their bikes and gt run over by some other vehicle. thn they pass away =( i donwan my boyfr t hv a bike. i know its selfish f me t think tis way if its smthing my boyfr rly wants but =( i guess noone understands. SIGHHS~
WHO IN THEIR RIGHT MIND WOULD WANT T SEE TH PERSON THEY LOVED BEING RUN OVER BY A WEHICLE,LYING ON TH ROAD MOTIONLESS W A BLOODIED BODY & A DISFIGURED FACE ? TELL ME,WHO ??
This is my opinion. I just don want him t own a motorbike.
Maybe its just my own phobia.
My late-Grandpa owns a motorbike. I feel at ease everytime im his pillon cos he is a safety rider. Bt accidents do happen. Why risk it when we can prevent it ? Am i right ? I worry everyday f my late-Grandpa. I worry even more on rainy days. When tt morning my Grandma called Mom telling her that Grandpa was in hospital. The first thought tt came t my mind was tt he was involved in an accident while on his motorbike. Im nt paranoid !! Im afraid =(
back t biting my nails f results =X
toodles*
